Incredible I am Not

Ever feel like Bob Parr? He's Mr. Incredible's secret identity. For awhile, Bob was forced to abandon the superhero life, and work as an insurance guy. All the while, he would have rather been out saving the world.

Well now, I have never had superpowers. And I've never saved the world before. But there are times when I feel like I should be doing something else. Something...important. Something BIG!

Don't get me wrong. Marriage and fatherhood are great adventures in and of themselves. Not dissatisfied with that aspect of my life at all. I love my wife, and I adore my kids. It's the career thing that bogs me down sometimes.

Again...I am not complaining. I have a great job. I love my boss, and I'm not just saying this because he could read this if he wanted. I work with a great group of people. But is it what I'm MEANT to do?

That's what I'm wondering. I wonder sometimes if I should write more, as if I have something of substance to say. (I'm not sure that I do.) I wonder if I should go into the ministry, but I don't do well enough as a "civilian" Christian. What makes me think I could be a leader?

I think most of this is because I didn't wake up one day and say, "Gee, I want to be a banker." And if you know me, it really isn't me. It's what I do, right now. But it isn't who I am. I think I'm still searching for that.

But also because I feel I have talent. (I could be wrong.) I feel like I am gifted in certain areas, and I'm not utilizing them much at present. I am afraid that these talents, like muscles that never see use, will atrophy. I really don't want that to happen.

And so I write. Conveying thoughts to you, the general public, for no reason other than that I have to say something. I have to exercise the writing muscle. I wish I did it more.